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[daggercubed]

So...

We have what? A month or two left at Curti Center?

Has anyone figured out where the fuck they want to move to yet?

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[daggercubed]

Look.

Unless you're the one who's causing the hurt, people don't get hurt because of you. Maybe they do when they're near you, and that's shit and it's awful, but it's not your fault.

[omnicrafter]

It's perfectly easy to say that out loud. To sound like you mean it, and to fool everyone else.

...Convincing oneself of it is an entirely different matter.

[daggercubed]

Fuck, I know that.

I can't tell you how to feel differently. You just have to keep going, keep trying, and find the good shit. Instead of the bleak, awful shit. A friend told me something like that once.

[omnicrafter]

The "good shit", huh... That's one way to put it.

I do, believe me. Maybe I'm just too prone to the pessimist outlook or something. It's not like I'm not trying to change, but it's not an overnight process. There are still people who make me want to change for the better, even if I don't have them with me right now, and letting them down isn't really an option.

I think if any of them showed up, though... I don't know if I could deal with that, considering the circumstances so far.

[daggercubed]

...Yeah. I know what you mean there. Where you miss them, right?

But if they came -- they'd know. The shit you keep bottled up. Or the shit you let out, because it's people that don't know you well enough to really get hurt by it.

[omnicrafter]

Yes, although there's another factor that seems to be unique to only one or two of us.

I can't quite decide if it would be better for them to know, or to have to rebuild everything from the ground up. In the case of those already here, we weren't quite close enough for it to have been a huge issue, but if it were someone I was better acquainted with...

[daggercubed]

I'm not sure.

It could be an issue, I won't lie. I suppose... if it were me, part of me would rather just have it over with. Part of me would rather keep them from ever finding out.